Unspoken Unexpressed Ramblings Of The Mind....Get Their Satiated Feel On A Nib Of It's Kind....Touching the Soul And Reaching Heart's Core....Far From Delusive Gleams And Unwanted Clamor....
Saturday, 11 April 2015
# 10 Joy...
Since the last 24 hours I was in the grip of the past. It was
almost after a decade I confronted my days of agony. Before speaking up I thought
I would be feeling heavy and dejected. But I wasn’t. Rather a lighter feeling
The only thing Ritesh spoke and kept on speaking since he
opened his mouth after waking up till he
left for his home was “ We need to find her”
I laughed, hearing this. “We have already found her”
“No …not in that way. What I want to say is we need to take
“Please Ritesh , be practical.It has been more than a decade
since I knew her. We have no idea about her present circumstances. The only
thing we know now, is that she is also a medico just like us. Though I wasn’t
successful in finding her in any of the inter medical meets that we had attended.
Nor did I find her in any social networking websites. I joined them in the
pursuit of finding her though. So what’s the point now. She’s gone. Like all
those beautiful moments of life which
leave us some or the other day and only memories remain. She is a memory for me
“Shut up you moron.don’t you dare talk those 60’s hero’s/heroin.
Eternal sad. Move with the times bro, move with the times.” “We …need….to..find…her”he
said specifying every single word again and again.
“But how ? I asked with my eyes raised like a big question
mark. “And hang on…who knows what changes have taken place in her life. Anything
might have happened. She would have got married. May be she would be having
kids. May be right now when we are discussing about her she would be leading a
happy life with her husband and her family. I think we both are in an age where
most of the girls of our batch are already married settled. So what is the
“You are one of the most unbelievable person I have seen. You
are going on speaking all the things that you actually are praying in your mind
to have not taken place. You are telling me all those things that you yourself
don’t want to have happened. U had seen her in the morning right. Did she show
any signs of having gotten married. No signs bro…simply no signs.”
“Come on…we can’t be so sure. These days we can’t just look
at some one and say whether they are married or not. It’s gone…she is gone.”
“ Just shut your mouth up. I know what to do.”
“What do you know and what would you do” I asked
“We will find her” he said in a determined voice
“It’s of no use”
“Can’t you see stupid. Why things happened the way it has
happened. God wants you both together again. Just remember the things that
happened yesterday. You getting late. Well you always get late. Let it be. You not
being able to find the bike keys. Her cousin not being able to drop her. Her
actual center being changed to our city because of the new rules of the exam. Her
cousin being connected to me through my friend and I being the one to drop her.
There isa plan. A plan Amrit. A
purpose. Can’t you just see. You moron. You were destined to sit in that front
sit and she in the back. And I am the chosen one to drive your relationship,well the non existing still existing
imaginary one ahead. You were saying naa.. that life doesn’t go the way we plan
because it goes the way He has planned.” Amrit said in a real dramatic way
pointing his finger upwards.
“Really…you think so”
“No…I know so” he replied with his naughty smile.
“But …how do we find a way out”
“Patience …bro patience. There’s always a way. We just need
to trust. Believe me we are going to find her.”
Hearing those words from his mouth my heart got filled up with
joy and I hugged him like a kinder garden kid hugging his teddy bear.